Just Don't Tell 'Em I've Gone Crazy

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)

I’ll read this as people I’d actually get upset without for more then a week.

This is honestly really hard. Just five people? I don’t wanna leave people out…hell, no one reads this.

1. Okay, Marcellus. He listened to me cry forever on the phone when he didn’t have to.
2. Caleb - just simply because I love him to death.
3. Sadly, Chance. [yuck]
4. Bella! I’d go insane without her and I saying stupid stuff.
5. Blake

Six things I wish I’d never done

• Not seen what I should have seen
• Been so cold to people
• Let people slip away
• Been so immature sometimes
• Said TONS of stuff
• Let certain things happen

God, please tell me when this will be over.

I can’t keep doing this to myself but on the other hand I just love fighting with him because it’s something, you know?

I can’t sit and listen to him talk about stuff that makes absolutely no sense because he did the absolute opposite with me. It just makes me feel like shit.

It’s not just him, but seriously, when will I ever be good enough?

Seven things that cross your mind alot

1. I don’t want to die
2. What if?
3. Why?
4. What the hell?
5. I hate this so much
6. Oh to hell with that, I’m me.
7. WOW, COOL.

I’m a very depressing person sometimes :P

Eight Ways To Win My Heart

1. Know who I am, and how I am, and love it
2. Don’t let me back out - because I’ll try
3. I like tall boys
4. Make me laugh when I want to cry, and hold me when I cry
5. Make my family love you - without them knowing that you love me
6. Tease me, gently, but know that I’m sensitive
7. If I say stop - stop tickling me or else I may kick you
8. Call me cute little names, I love it

Nine Things About Myself

1. I hold on forever
2. I eat some foods really weird
3. Shrimp is impossible to eat because I feel like it’s swimming inside of me
4. When I love - I love hard.
5. I’m trying to grow up.
6. I love music
7. And juice
8. I write
9. I’m shy

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

Blake -

1. Thank you so much.  

2. I’m sorry that I wasn’t there for you as much as I should’ve been.      

3. I miss the early summer, when we talked in the morning.                 

4. Your singing puts me to sleep. Not because it’s bad, because it isn’t. But because it’s so cute.                                                                        

5. It drives me insane to not talk to you for more then a day when we fight.        

6. One day - Me + You = Visiting New York together.

7. I spelled visiting wrong in the last sentence at least 4 times.               

8. I’m sorry I’m crazy.                                                                                

9. I don’t know what I’d do without you.  I’d have an OMGPOP date with you anyday.   

10. I love you :)

Chance -

1. I hate you for what happened.    
                                                             
2. It was both of our faults.    
                                                                  
3. I don’t know why I still like you, I just do.
                                                  
4. I remember every moment with you practically.                                            

5. I wish I didn’t.                                                                                      

6. I know you probably think I’m crazy. That’s okay.                                       

7. I did love you.                                                                                     

8. I probably won’t ever love you again.                                                       

9. I’m sorry for December and Austin.                                                          

10. I’m sorry for my part of it too cause it takes two to tango.

Taylor -

1. I really think you’re a whore.                                                                     

2. Stop having sex with all these people.                                                      

3. I don’t want to see you pregnant.                                                            

4. I wish we were closer - I don’t have close friends that are girls.                       

5. We aren’t close because you lie too much…and I’m a bitch.                          

6. You’re a beautiful person. You don’t need to have sex to feel wanted.            

7. I will always enjoy jammin’ to backstreet boys.                                           

8. But you do need to learn to shush.                                                             

9. I’m jealous of how you can talk to boys.       
                                        
10. Don’t ever let my bitchiness bring you down.

Marcellus -

1. I used to think I liked you, all the time.

2. I’m sorry about freshman year.               
                                                 
3. Thank you for listening while I cried.                                                          

4. And being there while I was and am being stupid about Chance.                      

5. I hope you don’t think differently of me because of it.                                   

6. I hope it didn’t hurt you when I dated Chance. I don’t know if you still liked me then, but I remember you saying to me that you were like, ‘Oh,
he has him so I have to get over her’                                                                                 

7. I love how you’re able to talk about how you feel about stuff without sounding completely whiny. 
                                                                
8. I love love love the way we totally like, never fight.                                     

9. When we do fight, it drives me crazy.                                                         

10. Damn, I just really can’t tell you thank you enough.

Rease -

1.You’re so funny sometimes.
                                                                     
2. I just hate when you scream loudly.                                                          

3. and sometimes you really don’t listen.                                                       

4. My aunt was totally serious about adopting you.                                           

5. I’m sorry that I freak out sometimes.                                                        

6. I’m also sorry that your mom is a crazy bitch.                                            

7. and that I’m mean.                                                                                 

8. I wish we would’ve became friends sooner.                                                 

9. I really don’t want to go to college with you. It’d be too much.                       

10. We’ll keep in touch always though.

Caleb -

1. You’re the sweetest thing, like, ever.                                                       

 2. I love when you call me ‘hun’.                                                                   

3. I love our webcam fun. I can make the dumbest faces and not be worried about what you think.                                                                    
4. I love that you like me for me. Craziness and all.                                         

5. I hate it when we fight because you always make me cry.                              

6. I love our phone conversations.                                                               

7. One day we will totally look at the stars together.                                       

8. I love it when you make fun of me for saying ‘penis’ weirdly.                           

9. I hate brian peppers.                                                                               

10. I love you :)

Felicia -


1. I hate that you had to move so far away.                                                   

2. I hate that you changed, but I changed too.                                                

3. I miss your mom, too.                                                                            

4. I loveeeeeeeee how funny you are sometimes.                                             

5. And how afraid of water you are.                                                               

6. I really hate your girlfriend.                                                                      

7. I wish you stood up for me when she said that.                                           

9. I get the goat.                                                                                       

10. I wish I could relive elementary school with you.

Bella -

1. We aren’t that close. I don’t think we ever were.
                                      
2. I love how you hate Chance.                                                                    

3. And how you want to break his face.                                                          

4. We are the best runescape trolls. Ever.                                                      

5. Did I tell you you could hit the spider?                                                        

 6. It is not a sex paddle.                                                                             

7. Don’t you make me moon you again, either.                                                

8. Who put the cookies in the cookie jar? I did.                                                

9. We need to be close.                                                                           

10. Have my babies.

I can’t think of anyone else…